Life was what happened :)

haluu.

haha, i know it has been awhile since i’ve updated, well not really, but so much has happened in the past three days that whatever that i can say within this one post will not justify the many many things that have gone on here in small ol’ Singapore. it has been one heck of a journey and it’s just the begining of a very very hectic life to come – as i forsee it. but never the less, studies aside, it is going to be damn fun and hall experience is definately a blessing in disguise for me, being able to meet so so so sooo many people from all sorts of different background and faculty. that is studies aside lah.

hall orientation has been… challenging for the past few days (three to be exact) with the usual icebreaking games, mass dance, telematch like games, getting sun burnt, cheer fights and the sorts. and i’m glad to say that day by day, i do feel that my retarded social skills improving, and as an OG, communication seems to be better, but non the less, all these i understand take lots and lots of time, and chemistry. if u clique u clique. nights turns into days and days turn into sleepy drowsy stoning days. Kent Ridge Hall seniors have made orientation or in their own words FWOC ( Freshmen week orientation committee – i think! ) as comfortable as it can be, albeit the awkward moments that is sometimes shared across the table, or the times when language becomes a barrier, or just the feeling of being out of place. I guess things like these cannot be avoided, but the effects have been well cushioned by their enthu-ness and lots of encouragement. i have to say that without them, it would have been an even more difficult start.

and then there is this dating game. when it’s over i shall share my experience. ha ha. don’t ask.

i miss home, family and friends at times when im in a crowd of people and suddenly i find myself not talking, just stoning, i will get that feeling of missing home, the comfortable crowd, how zyin/becca would have reacted to something someone said, and simply wished that all my friends could have been around to share my stupid moments with me, and you know my thoughts tend to wonder on how they would have taken all this in. the colours, the personalities, the not being able to get sleep, the toilet which is not connected to the room but at the end of the corridor, the doing your own laundry, the no aircon how to sleep feeling of despair, and the rush of emotions that swept me off my feet and into a phase where it feels like i’m neither here nor there – floating, trying to get my steps right.

much more to say. but i’ve got to goo off and get some things for my soon-to-be date :) i hope.

friends ask why you’re crying. 
best friends already have the shovel, 
ready to have the loser buried alive.

i am so blessed to have you two in my life.

hello all!

I am home sweet home after 4 days of fun in the sun at medicamp (orientation) @ Singapore. I’m sun burnt, tired, sweaty, my clothes stank as if I soaked them in mud, and my body muscles ache, but deep down inside me is a new found drive, and this mixed feelings of joy and happiness sums up to a new excitement like a little girl opening christmas presents!

Making friends in the beginning was weird – like a foreign attribute which I thought was long ago lost amidst my very comfortable circle of friends. The awkward pleasantries we exchanged with one another on the first day of orientation felt different from the comforting whack on the back by the regular faces I return the whack to. This orientation felt very real, made me look at myself, and how it really feels to start all over again; to re-learn what it feels like to say,”Hi, my name is Jenny, what’s yours?” Needless to say, by the end of the 4days staying and working together with a bunch of ’strangers’, i will soon be exchanging whacks on the backs with them soon :) *fingers crossed*

I’m thankful that my OG was who they were although we were bunch of slackers, but it was comforting to have them around for orientation, and I wouldn’t have asked for a better bunch of people to begin this new chapter of my life with. Thank you team!

This orientation made me realise how much I would miss home too. Coming home and seeing mummy waiting at the bus stand felt foreign too and I’m pretty sure she was more ‘gan cheong’ than me. Hearing the voices of my besties again felt so good, us breaking into excited chatter abt the week’s activities, is such a blessing. can’t wait to spend the next weeks with you *loves*

Heh. I’m re-reading my post, and thinking to myself how funny life turned out to be, completely caught me off guard and yet set me in a totally new and exciting direction. Guess the saying still holds true – everything happens for a reason.

:) will write more about orientation once I get back into blogging mood.

“It’s like we’re on a train that’s going 200 miles an hour
and it would be so nice to get off,
and just stand on the platform just for a minute.”

I am 20 and I,

1. still get scared of the dark, sometimes… SOMETIMES! especially after some freakish horror movie/good ghost story… and so i switch on my trusty ol’ night light.
2. watch the powerpuff girls. awesome i tell you. awesome.
3. have never stayed away from home for more than 10 days – this is why I think I will be so lousy in Singapore for the first few weeks/months ( lets not hope it’s months okay)
4. complain like anything to my parents about stupid things, like filling in endless numbers of forms..
5. unwilling to be responsible over my own bank account/ accomodation/ cleanliness/ FORMS/ transport/ basically my life. because I am lazy like that.
6. sing like there is no tommorrow, to my steering wheel that is.
7. have not seen sun set and sun rise ( someone please drag my butt to go watch sun set and sun rise.. i beg of you)
8. have not been to many many countries that I would one day hope to visit, too many to list.
9. hate doing things online, especially forms, because I am still not a tech person.
10. am still lousy at flirting… horrible.
11. buy my 22 year old friend a soft toy for her birthday.. hahaha.
12. enjoy McDees anyday!
13. brighten up the minute you buy me icecream!
14. still looove rainbows.
15. still get grounded for going out too much. meh.
16. still cries like a baby when I get hurt.
17. still hug my parents as if I was five.
18. hug/bully/whack/pinch/call names/chase my siblings.
19. chase my friends up and down the street screaming and throwing cake at one another ( my 20th birthday mind you) only to get caught by the security guards and we sullenly go back to screaming in my own house compound.
20. am still single! :) and sort of loving it.. hehe.

so yeah, I am very sure I can make the list go on and on and on. but shall leave it at 20.

Truly blessed to have friends like you guys to celebrate my 20th. Felt so loved and happyy, it cannot be put into plain words. I am so going to miss you guys like crazy when I’m gone. Don’t forget to remember me. Turning 20 made me remember what love feels like once again.. although a different kind, but still truly inspiring and comforting to have and to know. Thank you to all for your wishes and love. You, made my birthday an unforgettable one and this gives us more reason to make the following one next year even better *hint* ! mwhahaha, kidding. 

will be gone for the next week @ camp, Sg.
don’t miss me too much.