Life was what happened :)

i’d give you all the pretty colours in the world, and yet,
it’ll all still look wrong, but you still can make it feel so right.

talk about having one heck of a mind blowing/evaporating week, sheesh. celebrated my favourite april’s baby’s birthday last night, which was a good break from our usually mundane activities of just studying, eating and sleeping. and eating and sleeping has been minimum already, mind you. ahpiam ah *hugs*

crap. I’m so nervous about the exams, the interviews, everytime I think about it, I feel like shitting, but still I can’t help but think about it because they are both so equally important to me. And, I have yet to find a proper answer, a reason why I need this more than the person next to me, why I deserve this more than anyone else, and WHY I want this so much. Will I be competent enough? Will I make a good doctor? Will I be able to help more than I hurt? Will I get lost in the ‘mundane’ activities that I forget the very reason why I want to be in this practice so badly?

so many questions. unanswered. I wish I could forget, forget to be complicated, forget to think and just follow my heart, forget about my problems, issues, and ego. to let Him give me what I need and not wish for something more, and to be happy where I am. so difficult to just be happy nowadays. why?

“So why do I keep hitting myself with a hammer?
Because it feels so good when I stop.”
-Dr. Meredith Grey

life is funny :)

God is watching, and laughing. haha, at least i’m laughing together with him too.

words cannot describe how thankful i am, and i’m even shameful to be even a tad bit sad. i’m enjoying the mess i’m in, because i’d rather not be in it in any other way.

you’ll always be apart of me.

and i have many many many guardian angels to thank. wish me luck, my biggest battle yet.

unless you attended Dr. Sri’s lecture, you wouldn’t know what that means! nyehhe. but then again most of you reading my blog would have probably attended dr. sri’s lecture.

much has happened over the past weeks. so much that i left out many many important milestones in my life. like how i survived feedback session aft summatives 2, clubbing at mardi gras with amazing people, took my first shot thanks to wj, went up to genting to attend the International Jazz Fest, became an official stalker with sofia (we were stalking this musician from the concert- OKAY LA it wasn’t really stalking, we just kept looking at him, then we took PICTURE!), stalked someone else in uni ( heh- it gets boring when u study all day all night and even dream abt it, entertaiment ppl), had a very very successful donation drive for Laos! ( WOOT! great job people, now lets harass eric to buy us all drinks), checked out a free clinic, fell in love with the new library ( i know im a nerd, but im a med student, remember that), had the best yong to fu in pudu, EVER, met thai yinn cher, ate so much siew mai that if it were carcinogenic i’d have cancer right now ( touch wood), got lost with eric ( yea, but thats kind of normal now, alerrr sayang k eric? sayang princess too), named eric’s and keat jien’s cars, princess and daisy, laughed laughed and laughed, i think i have six pax now, and yea, basically freak out about EOS everytime i’m doing something thats not related to studying, including sleeping.

because everytime i close my eyes, my first thought would be, sleep would be good, then it’ll change to, what drug does this, or what connects this to that, yupp.. i don’t feel like i sleep anymore. haha.

cheers people. with love.