5 days seem too short.
and then im home. sun burnt. and very content. and tired. and at the same time very happy.
couldn’t have been any better than this.
jennie thinks..
that even if she hears thunder that seem really far away and if its not raining in her area, lightning wont rob streamyx from her.
that she actually sucks in multi tasking, although by now, it seems like a known fact, however, she still hopes.
that she’s actually very stuck in between two different choices which are very hard to make.
that the holidays are so good right now, she doesnt want it to end.
that perhentian will rock her socks.
that sleeping at a decent hour like how she normally did, with mornings would be a great idea.
very badly of bad weather, as now she has NO astro… and its begining to feel torturous, because how much of japan/korean/chinese drama can you take in a day?
that the next five years of her life aint really going to be so easy after all… HAHAHA. stoopid. who she kidding?
sleeping will be good. now.
so gnyte :)
I dun fren u.
hi world!
i’ve learnt alot of things lately, most i think will do me good, and makes me look back and wonder what the heck was i doing for the past 18years of my life. NO, it wasnt an awakening or some kind of light shinning down on me from heaven for goodness sake, just plain old things that you never realised and suddenly i realised. just tiny things. especially in terms of being just thankful.
to take things one step at a time.
to understand.
to listen more and talk less. (hahahahahaha.. rite)
to just be thankful.
i sound like i’m going mad, don’t i? hehehe. i mean even though its only a week since my last exam paper, but somehow i feel bored. just plain bored. although i will have alot of catching up to do come tomoro!
just needed to rant. cant wait for perhentian tho. i think purple and yellow/orange don’t go. i still have the cravings for KFC and no, i haven’t eaten KFC in a long time. i suddenly feel like shipping myself to NY because i feel like its calling me to walk down the streets of manhattan and shout. heroes is dlded and i can’t watch coz i promised my brother to watch it togtehr with him. i ran through in my mind things i can wear and decided that i no longer have nice decent clothes out. which also means i have the urge to splurge and shop. hence, please call me if ur in need of retail therapy. also accessorie. i am super duper excited for perhentain. i finished reading deception point and it isnt a favourite. i need astro back. one week aft exams and i am looking forward for uni actually. nerd. somtimes i feel really lonely at home. ya. lonely.
plus boyfriend is arriving today :)
Go on, ask me if i’m happy?
:) :) :) :)
and tadaaa, my boyfriend is coming home in 5ive days!!!!! happy shiny happy.
but of course i wish there could be more things for me to be happier about, like being able to stick to zyin and becca like horrible siamese twins so that we can laugh at the same lame things and talk about things when we need to, and not do it over msn or the phone or smses cause those methods are so potong stim for the moment, but of course until we get so sick of each other that we result into just reading each others mind instead of actually moving our lips… so yaa.. then we just seperate. but alas, this happy is still better than wishing i was in lala land, or going over the ‘dark’ side or loosing all sanity or rather thinking of methods to end the torturous long long exam period. which in a matter of fact, finally over.
so yes, God give God take.
day one was spent at OU just plain old shopping with the five fabulous and amazing people i know, zyin. becca. shireen. weiting. chinyee. amazing group no? so we had fun, walking but we had more fun just yacking.. and we had even more fun not thinking! hah! it was hilarious, tiring and yes, what we all needed… retail therapy. but then again, due to unforseen circumstances, with all the just sitting around with our notes for the past few months all day and night and in class, in our rooms, toilet also we sit.. everywhere-lah, and so when we walk, we ache. sigh. sign of, dare i say, old age maybe? naaaaaaah! its definately us not use to being happy feet. not forgetting the boys whom we met up with happily in front of lovely lace next to an escalator, with many passerbys staring and going.. ‘what the?’ old young men ladies kids. ya u name it, we were stared and we stared back! hahaha. probbaly thought we had some insane mass gathering. excuse us for being loud, but still…. so yes, leaving OU that night, gave me that feeling, the one where, sigh, i hope i never ever forget how i feel tonight, or more importantly i hope i never ever forget these people..
and then day two. spent at home. i know. surprise surprise! cleared room. cleared bedroom. cleared study table. cleared closet. cut hair. watch movies. yaa.. and just sleep. rest day.
day three! tomoro. or today. wtv. meeting long lost friends for lunch and fantastic four! oooo…. umei especially, our own celeb u know! *hahahhaha* :) yaaa mei, if ur reading this, u just have got to know how much we all love u! hahaha. so yes, cant wait. actually i shud sleep :)
and so that ends my college time of my life. 18 years gone by, and *hint* im turning 19 soon… haha. which leaves me feeling kind of nostalgic and excited of the things yet to come. the many things we talk about how we would end up ten years for now, if we’re going to see each other again, or rather if we’re going to end up working at the same hospital, weddings, kids? or how heart to heart talks or just plain gossip i’ll so badly miss, like japanese kid, taiwan boy, plastics, 70s girl, the ex-boyfriend, the inexclusive boyfriend, the b*tch who is flirting with my boyfriend, the love haters hater, ppt-ness, fickle mindedness, our lecturers, asia cafe food, salmon stake, dota, cs, men!, the blurness, the brink of insanity… and just how in the end, we manage to find comforts listening to each other rant rubbish but sometimes good things too.
my results *long long sigh* would probably not be the icing on the cake, it’ll probably be just the cake, but the people i’ve met along the way and got so addicted to, would probably be the icing. its hard to say whether i’ll feel this way about each of them in lets say ten years down the road, i certainly hope i still can call them up and yell i’m going crazy, or how i’d rather kill myself now, or cry about so and so, and complain about this and that, and expect the response of laughter and teasing and then the agreeing of how life sucks and how its sucking all the fun in the world… but alas, it can only remain a wonder for now… a thought which we will all never know for certain what will happen..
but one thing is for sure, i’m going to hope and wish mighty hard to remember. even if i do get amnesia, i’d expect a whack from one or two of these people.
as my dad always says at the end of every term or chapter or wtv, friends come and go just as nature wants it so. well, hahaha! lets just prove there are more than one ways to that.. Nature can’t be spending sooo much time wanting us to be apart, no? i mean seriously its bad for Mother Earth keeping us awaaay! hahaha.
so ya, i am happy but i can’t help but feel a tinge of sadness too. just a bit :)
Sugar Rush
its the sudden rush of realisation that the things you’ve been wanting to do, the dreams you want to reach for, the sky you want to so badly touch, the hopes, the wistful thinking, the reason for all those years of endless trying, of having no reasons but this ONE reason… its finally happening.
with a penned down signature, all this, and a whole lot more will be all mine.
that realisation that all these talk all those years won’t be talks anymore. it won’t just be another year of thinking about it. the realisation that its happening. that its so near, so close and all together just so freaking real. and i’m feeling this rush, this exciting new feeling, a sense of finally reaching the end of a whole new begining. mixed emotions. happy. confused. day dreamer. jumpy. nervous. happy. and amongst the craziness of it all, i can’t help but think and think again, if this is really what i’m meant to be doing for the rest of my life. as much as i love this thought of doing this, i keep thinking of how big HUGE this is to me.
Time flies. Time waits for no man. Time heals all wounds.
All any of us wants is more time. Time to stand up.
Time to grow up. Time to let go. Time.
Grey’s Anatomy.
time – perhaps i need a bit more. everything is happening too soon, and so fast, that its a whole new race against time. too many things for so little time. because its the rush of finishing off so many things off in a day, because we fear we wouldn’t have the time to do it later. there is definately just too much to do in a day. and we’re afraid of loosing that bit of time… but as they always say as well, there is always 2mrw rite?
In the O.R., time loses all meaning… In the midst of sutures and saving lives, the clock ceases to matter… 15 minutes, 15 hours. Inside the O.R. the best surgeons make time fly. Outside the O.R., however, time takes pleasure in kicking our asses. For even the strongest of us, it seems to play tricks. Slowing down, hovering, until it freezes. Leaving us stuck in a moment, unable to move in one direction or the other.
Grey’s Anatomy-
haha, i suppose time doesn’t apply to us in the ‘O.R’ bt it certainly kicks our ass in the examination hall… at least i know i’m not the only one getting my as kicked. another two more papers people, and we can make time last forever.. or at least try :)
thanks be to God.
for the many good things that i have going on in my life,
and even for the not so good things, everything has a reason.
